Time’s up. The bomb has been ticking and steady rhythm has begun to tick slower and louder like that of a drum. Pumping louder and echoing the sound of each difficult beat of my heart. I never imagined my life to end this way. I expected to get married, have a family, and grow old. I always pictured an old couple—my husband and I—walking hand in hand smiling and laughing at one another. It’s hard to imagine that it’s ending before it began. Who would have ever guessed my life would be taken from me before it had the opportunity to fully bloom.
I wish I could go back and heal every wound I ever caused on me or others. Mom and dad you are the best parents anyone could have asked for. Dad thanks for letting me be your little girl. I know you love me, the best part is we won't be apart forever just for a short time. I'll be patiently waiting to see you again.
Though I say I wish I could go back and change all the things I should’ve been less concerned about it’s not true. Those stupid things I filled my life with in high school they shaped, built, and eventually molded me in a good way. I discovered all the things I never wanted to be a part of my life. Each mistake I made brought me closer to the person I needed to become.
However, though it my life is shutting down there is a strange sense of a beginning. I feel connected to a future that has not yet shown itself to me. Every ending is just the start of a new beginning, who knows what’s coming next. This is now an opportunity for me to be a new person and start fresh in being exactly the person I have been trying to be. This world is hard we all fight to leave a mark, to be the greatest, and to make it to where we are supposed to be. Though mine is cut short I hope that at times I had a tight grasp on reality and what was most important, and that I will be remembered for doing great things no matter how small they may have been. It was great while it lasted.
Love Karlee
I find it rather morbid that you are writing about dying young. So sad. Nonetheless, your last words were very heartfelt and inspiring. Well done! :)
ReplyDeleteYou can write a more eloquent letter than mine. haha I really have no idea what to tell others if I was on my death bed. I hope that when I get to that point I will be able to have had a full life and effected many people for good.
ReplyDeleteThis literally almost made me cry, then I realized that it actually wasn't real, and I was okay :) I like your emotion that you put into this, because I can relate to it well. I feel like I would write about a lot of these same things if I were writing this as well.
ReplyDeleteaww this is kinda sad :( but...really good at the same time. I would hope I never die young, there is so much I wanna do first!
ReplyDeleteAw :( I felt like this was too true! My eyes started blurring! Wow, this is a sad day! That was a very poignant blog and captured exactly what I think each of us would want to let our loved ones know. Good job! :)
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